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Through ALL things {Into the Word Wednesday}

A few months ago I felt like the world around me was caving in.

I tried counting my blessings.  I tried just powering through everything. 

The truth is I didn’t really have anything to complain about other than the sheer amount of work I was doing.  No one in the family was ill.  Nothing catastrophic was happening. 

In my head though I wasn’t keeping up.  My mind and body were in shut down mode. I didn’t want to do anything. I was ready to quit everything and start from scratch. 

With another semester until hubby’s graduation, quitting was impossible. 

Then I heard this…

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Oh!  Through ALL things.  ALL things.

I was still very happy being a wife and a mom.  I simply wasn’t happy with the amount of work I had to do. 

Then I did the unthinkable. 

I volunteered my time.  Time I already felt I didn’t have. 

Volunteering.  Giving time away. 

With money tighter than ever (like when we were newlyweds and broker than broke), it seemed almost silly. I could be using that time to work more hours, clean my house more, relax even.  

The co-founder of the organization was overwhelmed when I met her.  A large group of us showed precisely when she needed us.  She had a lot of promises from a lot of people.  People I went though orientation with that fell off the face of the planet shortly after the meeting.

I’m not saying that volunteering solved my grumpiness but it certainly did put things in perspective. 

I was needed and it wasn’t ‘work.’  Well, I was still working but somehow it didn’t feel like work.  It felt like serving.  It was serving.  It was an example to my kids that it’s not always about the money.  I’ve explained to the oldest and even had him help out.

I feel I was led there.  I had thought about it for a few years and at a time when I thought I couldn’t handle another plate in the air…it all came together flawlessly. 

I started doing something new that I’m very passionate about at a time when I already felt overwhelmed. 

He can do amazing things.  By listening and doing as I was led, He filled my life in a new and amazing way!

Are you feeling a tug in a direction you are unsure of?  My advice?  Listen and follow!!  <—–  tweet

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Taking control and being enough. {Into the Word Wednesday}

I don’t know about you but it’s been really difficult to stay motivated since summer began.

Boy.  I just don’t want to do anything.  Well, not anything.  I want to do whatever I want to do when I feel like doing it.   I told my husband this and he said he’s never loved me more!

He is more laid-back than I am to say the least.  He is able to relax and not think about the one million things that we should be doing.  I love that about him.  I have yet to master this art.

Even now that I realize this, I still can’t make myself do it.  I feel obligated to complete the never-ending list before allowing myself any down time.  So instead, I begrudgingly cross things off of my to-do list while getting angrier and angrier (at myself).

There is a storm brewing in my life.  The worst part?  It’s all in my head.  It’s all brought on by my constant fear of letting someone down.  That someone is me.

To the nagging fear that I’m not good enough. That I’m not enough. It stops today!   <—- tweet it

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I felt like I was caught up in this never-ending storm, riding the waves instead of sailing at ease.  It’s as if any minute a wave is going to crash down and take me right out.  I can’t do it all.  I want to but just can’t.  In fact, I actually don’t want to!

Yeah. That’s it.  I don’t want to.

Why do we do this to ourselves?  (By we, I’m including any of you that might feel the same way!)

We take on too much, insist we don’t need help, and burn out.  It’s time to realize that we can and should take control.  By taking control, we are powerful.

We must have the strength to say no.  We need to have the power to weed out the things in our lives that aren’t enhancing it.  Why can’t we?  Jesus did.  He spoke to calm the storm.  He said what he wanted and got it!

The disciples were scared.  The storm was frightening to them and they didn’t know what to do.  They turned to Jesus.  He told them to have faith.  He took control of the storm.  Reread that.  He took control.  He took it.  He claimed it.  His words were enough.

Taking control.  (<— I need more of this and this —>)  Knowing that I am enough. 

I believe these go hand in hand.  If we don’t take control of all of the aspects of our life, we’ll never feel like we’re enough.  We need to understand our limits.

Once we’re living and operating within our limits is when we start feeling like enough.  <—- tweet

Instead of letting life happen to us, we take control of it.  Instead of always saying yes and doing things we don’t really want to do, we say no.  We do what we want.  Say no to tasks, activities, gatherings that do nothing but add stress to our already sinking boat?  Say yes to the things we want to do.

  • Playing with the kids instead of cleaning the house.
  • Dancing in the rain instead of complaining about it.
  • Relaxing instead of stressing.
  • (______________ instead of __________________) 

Instead of worrying that we aren’t enough, we realize that we are doing our best.  Our best is enough.

Hear me on this.  Your best is enough!

Join me, won’t you? 

Say it with me!  ‘I’m in control of my life and my best is enough!’ 

 

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Allowed to Grieve

I’m sharing today over at my friend Jamie’s blog Brown Paper and Strings for her series entitled Out of the Dark, Into the Light.

It’s from my heart.  It took a while to write in between the memories and the tears. 

If you’ve experienced the death of a child…this is for you. 

Into the Light

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Innocent Bystander {Into the Word Wednesday}

I’ll be honest.  My stomach has been in knots since hearing about the explosions in Boston.

It’s another one of those events that becomes a permanent fixture in your mind.  Remembering that I was home from school with the flu the day the Challenger exploded.  Recalling the events of 9/11, realizing the mom of the family I cared for was flying that day, then waiting several hours to hear from her.

I’m sad that sometimes I hear about an event like this and I’m no longer surprised.

I will be honest.  My first reaction to the news wasn’t shock.  I was angry.  So out-of-my-mind angry that something like this happened again.

Then…

I saw the photo of the beautiful 8 year old boy that and instantly broke down.  The anger was quickly replaced with compassion.  I can not even imagine what his family is going through. 

If you are a parent of a young child, I’m sure you felt the same.  I thought of my own little ones.  I thought of how I’d feel if either of them were an innocent bystander in such a tragedy.  I’m leaning on this verse this week.

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Faith In Him {Into the Word Wednesday}

It’s been a long few weeks here.  Has it been where you are? 

Once again I have to apologize.  This is the second week in a row that I thought Wednesday was Tuesday.  For some reason even after looking at the calendar I’m not quite able to figure out the actual day. 

So this is late.  It’s late and there is nothing I can do about it. 

I feel as though I’m working myself to the bone but not gaining any ground.  Have you ever felt this way?   It’s time to step back, reevaluate, and then regroup. 

The verse I’m drawn to right now is Matthew 6:26. 

‘Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them.  Are you not of more value than they? 

Yep.  The bible is right.  He does provide.  It’s all around us.  He takes care of his children just as we take care of ours.  I had been taking all of the craziness upon my shoulders.  Feeling like I was all alone when in fact I’m not.

He knows all.  He can see how hard I’ve been working although for some reason I have felt like I need to prove it.  Maybe I’m proving it to myself.  Maybe I’m trying to provide my husband with the peace of mind that we’ll be okay.  That he can take the time to follow his dream.   

I think forgetting the same day twice in two weeks is enough to say it’s time to slow it down a bit!!  So, since Wednesday doesn’t seem to exist for me right now, I have a new plan.  

I’ll be taking it slower.  I’ll be not pressuring myself to be so perfect in everything.  It’s okay if I don’t get to the laundry. It’s okay if I don’t get to a blog post.  It’s okay if I choose to stay in my pajamas on the one day a week I don’t have to work. 

I know that I am not alone in this no matter how I might feel inside.  I just need a reminder!

Let’s all remember that He knows your hearts, your mission, your dreams, and He will provide.  (<— Tweet it)

 

 

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