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the things we never forget

Too many images go through your mind when reminded of that date. As with other things you don’t forget, it is forever burned into your memory.

Seeing it as it unfolded. Watching people jump. Seeing the second plane. As the buildings fall, staring in disbelief at what is happening.

We won’t forget. We can’t forget.

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Allowed to Grieve

I’m sharing today over at my friend Jamie’s blog Brown Paper and Strings for her series entitled Out of the Dark, Into the Light.

It’s from my heart.  It took a while to write in between the memories and the tears. 

If you’ve experienced the death of a child…this is for you. 

Into the Light

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Child-Like Faith {Into the Word Wednesday}

So, it’s been a rough few days here at our house.

Learning to live without a furry member of the family isn’t much fun. 

It’s been sad but I can honestly say I’ve learned a lot from watching the kids. They are so innocent.  They are so open.  They have child-like faith because, of course, they are children.

The little one isn’t old enough yet to understand death.  The big one is a borderline expert!  He has more than once said something profound that eased the pain. 

What I’ve learned this week is that mom doesn’t always have to be the teacher.  There are so many things we can learn from our kids. 

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This verse is so true.  If we watch our children we can learn how to increase our faith.  Children believe without seeing. They often take what we’ve taught them and run with it.  

Of course we get the whys as they grow and want to be independent thinkers.  We do the same!  Have you ever questioned Him?  Have you ever asked why?  I know I have!   

I’ve been paying attention the past two days.  I’ve learned a lot about my oldest child during this time and even more about myself as a mom.

Here are a few of the things he has said since the cat passed. 

   ~’There is no reason to be sad.  Mimi is in heaven now so God can fix his ears.  He can hear now!’  (He is seeing the positive!)

   ~’I'm sad that Mimi isn’t here now but I’m happy he gets to play with Great Nana in heaven.’  (He realizes he can be sad and happy at the same time.)

   ~’Don’t worry mom, you’ll get to see Mimi soon when you go to heaven.’  (He is not afraid of death or heaven.)

That last one took me by surprise.  I half laughed listening to his words of wisdom and I half wanted to interrogate him to find out what he knows about me going to heaven soon.

I’ve been more comforted by talking to my Kindergartener than by talking to anyone else.  I’m proud of myself that I was perceptive enough to see what He was trying to teach me.  I’m happy I was open to listening and learning!

I’m going to work on learning more to be like my children.  Be open.  Be honest.  Be child-like. 

Have you learned something from your children lately?  <——-  Tweet this

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The Rough {Matrimonial Monday}

So, I’m way, way late getting my post up today.

I started yesterday but my heart wasn’t in it.

At work with the baby last night I was up almost every hour for no real reason.  He slept well but I didn’t.  I was restless.  I have no idea why.

My husband is amazing taking care of everything while I’m not here.  He lets me nap to catch up on sleep I’ve missed caring for a newborn.  He’ll make sure the dishes are done so I have my special coffee cup ready in the morning.  He’ll even come down to sleep on the couch so I can have the bed and sleep in even after the kids are up.

He certainly does a lot more than this but these are some of what he did for me just in the past 24 hours.  There are many times I fail to notice all of these little things and choose to only notice what I haven’t seen him do. 

The events of this morning have changed my way of thinking. Why?  He did something I couldn’t even bring myself to do.

He handled the rough like a champ when I couldn’t.

On the way home early this morning I heard it was going to get down to about 9 degrees today so I brought our portable DVD player and GPS unit in from the car.

I walked around the island to place them on the counter.  This is something I never do.  I usually come in, drop my bags, and head to bed.

Today, I am happy I did.

I walked around the island and I saw our sweet cat lying there watching me.  Although he’s completely deaf he can always feel the vibrations of my footsteps in the morning.  He is almost always ready to eat and chases me to the food bowl on mornings such as these.

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This morning, though, he wasn’t.

I woke my husband and he very bravely knelt down to check just to be sure.  Sure enough, he was not breathing.  He was healthy and snuggly last night, yet this morning he was gone.  May you rest in peace Mimi/Camelot.

I watched as my husband stroked his back one last time.

I cried as he found a nice towel to wrap him in along with a box to place him in.

I saw him bravely place the box in the garage until we can figure out how to handle it.

I listened as he told the kids that our sweet 12 year old cat had passed away and was now in heaven.

I stood there frozen when our oldest asked to see his body and his father bravely walked him out to take one last look.

My amazing husband handled the rough as if it were his duty.  I could see the tears but he still did what he needed to do.  I could only watch all of this taking place because I couldn’t bring myself to do it.

He always does what he needs to do and he does it with courage.

He is my rock.

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Feature {Into the Word Wednesday}

I spent some time reading through the posts that were linked up from the Wednesday before Christmas.  It was difficult to get back into the swing of life after hearing about the tragedy that occurred in Sandy Hook. 

One post stuck out to me more than any other from that week. 

4 Ways God Works Tragic Events to Good by Brooke over at Rivers of Water. 

She included this:

Twas’ 11 days before Christmas, around 9:38
When 20 beautiful children stormed through heaven’s gate.
Their smiles were contagious, their laughter filled the air.
They could hardly believe all the beauty they saw there.
 
They were filled with such joy; they didn’t know what to say.
They remembered nothing of what had happened earlier that day.
“Where are we?” asked a little girl, as quiet as a mouse.
“This is heaven” declared a small boy. “We’re spending Christmas at God’s house”.
When what to their wondering eyes did appear,
But Jesus, their savior, the children gathered near.
 
He looked at them and smiled, and they smiled just the same.
Then He opened His arms and He called them by name.
And in that moment was joy, that only heaven can bring,
Those children all flew into the arms of their King…
 
And as they lingered in the warmth of His embrace,
One small girl turned and looked at Jesus’ face.
And as if He could read all the questions she had,
He gently whispered to her, “I’ll take care of mom and dad.
 
Then He looked down on earth, the world far below…
He saw all of the hurt, the sorrow, and woe…
Then He closed His eyes and He outstretched His hand,
“Let My power and presence re-enter this land!
 
“May this country be delivered from the hands of fools”
“I’m taking back this nation. I’m taking back the schools!
“Then He and the children stood up without a sound.
“Come now my children let me show you around.
 
“Excitement filled the space, some skipped and some ran…
All displaying enthusiasm that only a small child can.
And I heard Him proclaim as He walked out of sight,
In the midst of this darkness, “I am still the Light.”
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If you are like me, you are wiping your eyes thinking about those beautiful babies.  I had a difficult time not thinking about the parents that had to celebrate Christmas without their babies. 
All of the emotion aside, I love how Brooke pulled herself together enough to see the good that comes out of tragedy. 
It’s true.  There is some good.  We can’t just focus on the tragedy.  If we did, we’d probably never get out of bed.  Head over there and check out the points she makes. 
Thank you Brooke for reminding us that there is a little good we can still see. 

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Becky at Tales of Beauty for Ashes

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